I chose BELIEVE as my word of the year this year. Choosing a word is just the start of the journey. It turns out, choosing the word, invites you to look deep into what it means for you and what needs to shift in your life for you to really embody that word and the feelings it evokes.
I started this journey because I knew deep in my soul that so many things were turning into a question. That doubt and worry were becoming my strongest companions. This is not who I want to be. Anxiety and fear cause you to second guess everything. They guide the choices you make. What you do, and what you avoid. They guide where you go and where you don't go. They guide how you feel, as you make decisions and then spend the rest of the time worrying about whether those decisions were right. Fear and anxiety rob you of a quiet mind and make your stomach clench that something you do may lead to a problem later.
I've decided I'm tired of fear and anxiety deciding how much I can relax. How much I look forwards to things and do what I think would be fun, or good or playful.